On working...
Why do things become weirdly odd at times...if there is such a word to start of with!
Why i say weirdly odd, might sound extremely boring. You wake up, you drop your siblings to their respective institutions and you get to work. Thats it.
Things at work these days are odd....there is a strange isolation all around. Silence, nothing moving, no action. Maybe its always the same everywhere, except that we are too action oriented. Ive heard my friends often say how much work we guys do...and that are company is a slave driver etc etc, but i guess its the sudden cut down in pace thats actually getting to us.
We were never used to having time to go downstairs for a coffee and donuts at DD except for saturdays or before getting to work....now you can move out when ever you feel like it.
Im exploring a lot these days, and hot having internet sure isnt helping. I have a working saturday. Almost till 5. bad. Just brainstorming with the agency. Lets hope we haev a direction till then.
I kinda like sara, she is good, and whats best, she knows why she is doing what. Thats so uncommon these days. I think she will make a great addition to the team.
Talking of teams, i dont know what happened here. Its all so loosely tied in.
There is a lot to be done, a lot to be achieved, significant miles to cover and no where to start. I stay stranded, tied to hope, for maybe 2 months more.
Life, just isnt easy sometimes...
Here comes the mother of all F-ups....
On the basis of some "information" the IT dept has blocked my internet today. What information, is something the Systems Manager cares not to explain. Whats weird is that during the day when i made my previous posts, i mentioned that my Gmail chats are under the radar. I found out because the IT dept. head was kind enough to let me know verbally. I paid heed to his warnings and ceased all communication through my Gmail channels. Any chat invitations that i recieved, were answered with a "cant talk here, mail me or call".
I am p*ssed. Very p*ssed.
One of these days, im gonna take this whole *ucking department and hang it by its heels.
The IT Policy manual states that chatting is not allowed, which i accept. But playing games is also not allowed, isnt that a violation by IT? Isnt that abuse of network resources? I dont give a damn if they do it during office hours or outside it. They use MSN, i dont care what purpose, but they do. That is a violation. So what if ur sitting at the bloody control lines.
You'll be hearing a lot frickkin more.....keep your eyes and ears covered.....
Sail Away
My mood right now.....
Once upon a time we had a lot to fight for
We had a dream, we had a plan
Sparkles in the air spread a lot of envy
Didnt have to care once upon a time
Remember when I swore
That love was never ending
That you and I would never die
Remember when I swore
We had it all
We had it all
Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days, are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, i'll sail away
Once upon a time we used to burn candles
We had a place to call a home
We dream that we lived
We spend it undefine
Everyday was like a gift
Once upon a time
Remember when I swore
That love was never ending
That you and I would never die
Remember when you swore
We had it all
We've made it far
Sail away, it's time to leave
Rainy days are yours to keep
Fade away, the night is calling my name
You will stay, I'll sail away
No reason to lie
No need to pretend
How greatfull to die
To live once again
Im fearless to fly
And reach for the end
And reach for the end
Sail away
sadness or madness?
Here i was today at work enjoying a nice long friendly chat with a friend, Tania.
Interestingly, I broke all my googletalk chat records. My longest conversation was about 45 lines or so.
Today, I hit 850 lines with Tania.
It was good fun....and i just discovered im not the only crazy nut in this world....and that im fairly successful at inding others. I guess its one of those birds of a feather things.
Here begin the chronicles of how my company is hell bent on isolating me socially.
First they blocked all MSN and Yahoo and all other chat services.
Then the following in order:
Orkut, Blogspot, Metblogs.
Lately, Flickr, comics.com (means no more Dilberts and Pearls before Swine for me) and now even BLOGLINES!!!!
Also got told about the gmail chat sessions. Do it anymore and we revoke all your rights.
Sigh....nothing much to say....
Random Deconstruction
Deep within, under my skin, lies a fire. Burning slowly, deeply, softly, smoothly. A sweet pain that I treasure and call my own. I guard it secretly, calmly, closely. Bittersweet.
Break this bittersweet spell on me. I am lost in the throes of destiny.
Destiny, I believe in creating my own. Fate, no doubt, has been written. Life, to be lived on ones own. Purpose, to be beyond a robot and to rewrite, Destiny.
Blasphemy, I am in pain a pain I know nothing of. Nothing known to man in this world can relieve me. I am running to the core, the core of my fears. Ambitions stand towering above me. Too far to be reached. I am Godless under your cover.
Time slides through my fingers, life slides from my eyes. All these blessings turn to burns, my life, my dreams, my existence.
I fall yet again, only to stand and face the tides, once again, once more. I brave the frozen tides on my naked skin.
Existence means nothing.
Always, Forever. I will be here.
